Enjoy this beautiful Wednesday!
Warmest,
Wednesday, March 31, 2010
Monday, March 29, 2010
The Day that Changed Everything and Our First Appointment
Although, our first appointment has been almost two months ago, I thought that I would back up and post about the experience starting with when we found out that we were expecting.
Jan. 12th-Even though I took the first of two pregnancy tests and it was positive, I still could not believe that we were pregnant. I guess after having a miscarriage I just wouldn't let myself believe that it could be "this month" because I didn't want to be disappointed...again. On the other hand, I knew that God had shared a couple of verses with me earlier in the month about how He keeps His promises and we must be "strong in faith" and "be fully persuaded that he is able to perform His promise." (The verses are Romans 4:20-21 and they have become some of my favorite verses). Ultimately, I knew that God had a plan and everything would happen in His time...I just didn't understand why it wasn't "now." Needless to say, I was learning to be patient and trust in Him and honestly, I had come to a place that no matter what the outcome...I was going to love and serve Him and be thankful for all He had done in my life...so...imagine my surprise when the pregnancy test (which I took on a whim) turned positive! I remember that I immediately began to cry and I just kept saying "thank you, God...thank you, God!" Jeff was at work so I called to tell him the good news. Even though this was not how I pictured telling him, I could not wait until he got home. I knew the burden to have a child weighed heavy on his heart too and I didn't want him to have it a second longer. He and I will never forget that phone call...it changed our lives :)
Feb. 1st-This was our first appointment with our fertility doctor after we found out we were expecting. Dr. H, in my opinion, is THE BEST doctor ever! When I first started seeing her in Sept. 09, she suggested surgery. After that surgery, we were pregnant in 3 months. She was optimistic, proactive and always took time to answer my "list" of questions. Overall, we couldn't have asked for anyone better.
When Jeff and were asked to sit in the ultrasound room and wait on doctor H...my nerves got the best of me. All I could think about was the last time we had an u/s and was told that the baby had no heartbeat. Were we DEVASTATED? Nope, that word doesn't even come close to describing how we felt that particular day. Through my D&C, lap. surgery with Dr. H and ever other procedure, I wore scriptures about faith pinned to my clothing. So, while I was sitting there in the chair I remembered that I had pinned the scriptures to my sweater again earlier that morning and I began to feel some peace. Just as I began to calm down, Dr. H came in and started the u/s. Still a little aprehensive, I wouldn't even look at the monitor. Then, I heard the most wonderful words that I will never forget..."look at that little heartbeat." My heart melted and tears began to flow with joy and relief. I remember looking at our baby, and then at Jeff. He had a huge smile on his face and I could tell...he was already smitten with the little sweet pea. SIDE NOTE: Later, I couldn't help but think of the "Friends" episode where Rachel had her first u/s and is so upset because she couldn't see what Ross and the doctor could see. Really, all I could see was this tiny little "thing" flickering. I couldn't make out what part was the baby and what part was me. It didn't matter though, I did see the heartbeat :) It was our little miracle.
Our Bebe's first picture!
Romans 4:20-21
Warmest,
Jan. 12th-Even though I took the first of two pregnancy tests and it was positive, I still could not believe that we were pregnant. I guess after having a miscarriage I just wouldn't let myself believe that it could be "this month" because I didn't want to be disappointed...again. On the other hand, I knew that God had shared a couple of verses with me earlier in the month about how He keeps His promises and we must be "strong in faith" and "be fully persuaded that he is able to perform His promise." (The verses are Romans 4:20-21 and they have become some of my favorite verses). Ultimately, I knew that God had a plan and everything would happen in His time...I just didn't understand why it wasn't "now." Needless to say, I was learning to be patient and trust in Him and honestly, I had come to a place that no matter what the outcome...I was going to love and serve Him and be thankful for all He had done in my life...so...imagine my surprise when the pregnancy test (which I took on a whim) turned positive! I remember that I immediately began to cry and I just kept saying "thank you, God...thank you, God!" Jeff was at work so I called to tell him the good news. Even though this was not how I pictured telling him, I could not wait until he got home. I knew the burden to have a child weighed heavy on his heart too and I didn't want him to have it a second longer. He and I will never forget that phone call...it changed our lives :)
Feb. 1st-This was our first appointment with our fertility doctor after we found out we were expecting. Dr. H, in my opinion, is THE BEST doctor ever! When I first started seeing her in Sept. 09, she suggested surgery. After that surgery, we were pregnant in 3 months. She was optimistic, proactive and always took time to answer my "list" of questions. Overall, we couldn't have asked for anyone better.
When Jeff and were asked to sit in the ultrasound room and wait on doctor H...my nerves got the best of me. All I could think about was the last time we had an u/s and was told that the baby had no heartbeat. Were we DEVASTATED? Nope, that word doesn't even come close to describing how we felt that particular day. Through my D&C, lap. surgery with Dr. H and ever other procedure, I wore scriptures about faith pinned to my clothing. So, while I was sitting there in the chair I remembered that I had pinned the scriptures to my sweater again earlier that morning and I began to feel some peace. Just as I began to calm down, Dr. H came in and started the u/s. Still a little aprehensive, I wouldn't even look at the monitor. Then, I heard the most wonderful words that I will never forget..."look at that little heartbeat." My heart melted and tears began to flow with joy and relief. I remember looking at our baby, and then at Jeff. He had a huge smile on his face and I could tell...he was already smitten with the little sweet pea. SIDE NOTE: Later, I couldn't help but think of the "Friends" episode where Rachel had her first u/s and is so upset because she couldn't see what Ross and the doctor could see. Really, all I could see was this tiny little "thing" flickering. I couldn't make out what part was the baby and what part was me. It didn't matter though, I did see the heartbeat :) It was our little miracle.
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Our Bebe's first picture!
Romans 4:20-21
Sunday, March 14, 2010
He hears us when we pray
For those of you who do not know...Jeff and I are expecting a baby in September 2010!!! Finally, we are PREGNANT! As I write this post, I am so overcome with joy! The Lord has heard our prayers and we are going to be parents! For those of you who encouraged and prayed for us we feel so blessed to have you in our lives. Keep the prayers coming as we have 6 1/2 months left!
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